Sometimes I feel like, “FUCK YOU WORLD, I HATE YOU.” but other days I’m like, “Feels great to be alive.” Am I going through Menopause? haha.

My beard is growing. Random but I decided I wanted to see how I looked like with one on. I feel I need to start doing everything I’m curious about.

Don’t let the weight of worries become the reason why your life drags on.

Notes

Music is such huge anti depressant.  Music is my huge anti depressant.  I was going through a rough patch a couple of weeks ago.  I was browsing artists and played on specific song that completely changed my mood.  It’s amazing to be blessed with such a gift.  I’d love that ability.

Don’t Change

We’re so used to the same routine. You develop a repeating pattern and anything that interrupts it is bad…right? I’m still figuring that out. Yea I’m changing, you have to. How else do you expect to do something different? I’ve hit some low points in my life. I’ve also done some exceptional things. I used to think I knew my problem with my terrible capacity to mange my time. But I have one reoccurring problem, I have trouble seeing what’s in front of me. It takes me days, weeks, and months to see what I’m doing wrong. I thought I hated what I was doing because things didn’t feel right. Turns out, the problem was my beginning. There’s always time to change. You owe it to yourself to strive for the best. I’m grateful I can see my mistakes and am able to have a chance to fix them. I can honestly say I’m blessed. I see Life as a preparation for celebration. You have to plan, look forward, and be excited for your celebration. Sure preparing takes time, but the celebration is always worth the time you invested. 

Ramblings.

I’ve never felt so low. I have everything and nothing…I wake up and tell myself everything will get better. Yet a part of me doesn’t care. I haven’t had a constant physical friend in a while. Why….